Chezzie

A placeholder

2006-01-19T15:58:37Z

Ok, for those of you that poked me to say that I've not updated this in aages, here's a post ;)

I'll try and update it more later, but a basic synopsis is that I am working for a uni/industry collaboration project which is so far going not too bad, if stressful.

Anyhow

More later

D.

An update

2004-02-13T17:09:54Z

This is an update to keep gravilim shineyquarter happy :P

Also apologies to stipe if it gives you another heart attack :)

So... what have I actually been up to recently...

Well apart from about 8 of the 25 or so University committees I sit on meeting, and trying to get my project to work and then document it, for results see here, I've been trying to plan my election campaign for my Students Union. I would point you to here if they hadn't managed to screw up transferring stuff from one host to another *rolls eyes*

Anyhow I'll try and keep more current than this...

Another ouch

2003-12-24T11:32:08Z

Yesterday was a bit of a stressful day in all, left the house at about 12:45, took 2hrs till I got my hair cut, then rushed off to the cinema to see ROTK. That was good, though I did miss a bit of it since my knee seized up part way through. Then tried walking home, but my knee really gave out about half-way back so I had to get a lift :(

Didn't sleep well last night either so am somewhat tetchy this morning.

%!$#^% Knee

2003-12-22T19:04:19Z

Did a fair bit of walking today, which seems to have aggravated my knee.... mind you the cold probably didn't help much either.

*bah* I'll be so glad when they can get round to fixing this infernal thing.

To keep Thrawn happy

2003-12-21T14:45:41Z

Basically this post is mainly to keep thrawn happy and to stop him poking me.

I may get round to doing more of a recap/update of my life at somepoint, but I'm afraid that this will have to suffice for the moment.

What is the point

2001-06-23T02:08:32Z

Why do I even bother with anything..... all that happens is either I screw up or someone screws me up. It doesn't matter what I try I can't get a damn thing right..... is there a point to this whole charade, I'm really beginning to think that there isn't and I'm just wasting my time with it all. I'm all alone... and I don't know if I want company or if I want to be alone forever.

Maybe someone will understand this junk that I write, I know I can't. People tell me it will be better but I don't see how.... I guess my only consolation is that it can't get much worse than it is now and that I really should just crawl up in a little ball.

There's stuff I kinda promised I'd do that I now really don't want to bother with since the whole idea of anything doesn't fit with my mood....... there's stuff I want to do that I can't now and may never be able to..... WHY?

I know I'm not perfect and mess things up lots, but all I want is forgiveness and another chance to try... why can't I be granted that at least. I guess that whatever I've done is just too much

It wouldn't surprise me at all I'm so good at just messing everything up that people are just fed up with me....

Oh well back to whatever the word to describe my 'life' (yeah like I have one) is atm.

D/S/C :(

Exams and other such joyous occasions

2001-06-05T21:11:31Z

Well today wasn't terribly nice :(

I got some sort of stomach bug which manifested itself last night and continued today... :(

This means that todays exam was less fun than it could have been :(

I'm still feeling really crap now and just wish that I didn't have exams so I could just spend a whole day in bed and recover... but that's not going to happen for a while

Oh well I guess I'll just grin and bear it (stiff upper lip and all that ) and hope that I'm ok for the exam on thursday that I'm really stressing about.

D/S/C

Hmmm

2001-06-01T22:47:52Z

I really must get my soundcard to work under linux now.... since then I could play CD's and stuff when I'm here at home...........

Anyway I'll fiddle tomorrow and ask people's advice then.

But anyone who knows how to get a SBL1024 working under linux, feel free to comment.

D/S/C

Woo (again)

2001-06-01T13:45:26Z

Today has been a good day, well mostly.

I woke up lateish and was tired (from karate) and then had to sort stuff out. I got my postal vote form, so I filled that in and posted it back (one less thing on my mind).

I can't find the lecturer I needed to talk to at all, which is annoying, but I'll be able to cope (hopefully).

Any with the help of giant I got loserjabber up and running *bounce* :)

I'm just wishing now that sunday wasn't so long away.... I want to do karate again, it was _FUN_ :)

D/S/C

Wooooooo bounce bounce BOUNCE BOUNCE

2001-05-31T21:27:54Z

Woooo :)

After a lil upset earlier this week, I finally got off my lazy arse and went to the karate club here at uni....

It was sooo much fun (did I mention that I'm bouncy after it?) :)

Anyway the person at uni is also into manga and anime, and has promised to show me some which is really cool :)

Anyway lots of hugs to jarel who managed to give me the final imputus to get up and go.

D/S/C

PS: I'm shattered, I shouldn't be bouncing.... I'll POING instea........... Ooooh, what's that :)

Grrrrrrrrrrrr Woody

2001-05-27T19:19:58Z

I've been trying to get Woody (Debian GNU/Linux 2.3) up for the whole of yesterday and today, and never quite getting there :(

Oh well must try more later

D/S/C

Life

2001-05-26T17:17:44Z

Well, given I'm a sad spod type person I've spent today installing woody (debian 2.3) onto my system. I'm writing this whilst waiting for ximian gnome to d/l itself and install :/

Anyway I'm happy since had 3 exams which went ok and have now got 10 days till my next one :)

Anyway *SNUGGLES* to sath, and *HUGS* to the rest of you :)

D/S/C

Ooops I've been letting this get very behind :(

2001-05-14T19:37:49Z

Well having been repeatedly pestered by Jarel I (he :) ) decided I should post again, so here goes....

I'm a lot better now than I was when I posted my previous entries, and am only down about one thing (exams) but that kinda can't be helped. I've suddenly realised how great a gift life is, despite my efforts to make it worthless. I'm glad for all the people who I know and who have been there for me and actually kicked me hard enough to get stuff done about my problems, rather than letting me not do anything because I'm too lazy.

Anyway I really ought to be revising (koff) and spodding too so I'll sign off here and post tomorrow :)

D/S/C

Erm, this needs a post

2001-03-27T20:32:23Z

I decided that I ought to post here again, I'm just kinda busy in life atm :(

I've managed to sort parts of me out, but me as a whole is still really low :(

I'm hoping that this holiday coming up will solve stuff, particularly me being with one person properly in 2 weeks or so will really help matters :)

I've got a spodmeet this saturday (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and that should be so cool. I'll meet lotsa people again and will be happy.

I'm randomly wurbling and rambling so I'll stop now, take care friends, esp my special one :)

Happy Chezzie

2001-03-18T00:18:05Z

I decided that posting an upbeat LJ entry was a good thing. I've now sorted out something that has been worrying me for a long time and am feeling (a) human and (b) closer to God as a result (both _really_ good things. :)

Thanks to all people who helped me through everything.

A less pessimistic Chezzie

2001-03-08T00:05:09Z

Hey :) I'm feeling less down.

Part of this may be because I got my code to work, with help from people telling me where I'd gone horribly wrong (Thanks :) )

I'm also generally a little better now and feeling a tad more bouncy :)

I'll stop randomly waffling now and sleep I think :)

Do I have the right

2001-03-07T00:12:30Z

I'm sitting here crying irl and then feeling bad, because what's happening to me is so much less than that which is happening to others I know, and they are nowhere near as depressed and sad as I am. I'm feeling that I don't have the right to feel sad because I have got nowhere near as much to deal with as them, but at the same time I can't help it. I wish there were some easy way to solve my mind, but unfortunately there isn't :(

I'm guessing that I really need to think a little more about myself and my life and go and find someone to talk it over with. Thank you to everyone who's ever helped me out, and has put their time aside to accomodate me, I don't want to think where I would be if you weren't there for me. I kinda suspect that you wouldn't need to be there for me now though :(

Life in General

2001-03-06T20:19:56Z

It seems kinda sad to start this whole thing off with a down look at life, but I'm afraid that's really how I'm feeling. I'm wondering why life has this habit of being cruel to you when you least need it, maybe it's God's way of showing you that he's there no matter what you are going through. I hope it's that, and I'm glad he's here with me, because otherwise I wouldn't be :(