Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Chezzie's LiveJournal:

Thursday, January 19th, 2006
3:54 pm	A placeholder Ok, for those of you that poked me to say that I've not updated this in aages, here's a post ;) I'll try and update it more later, but a basic synopsis is that I am working for a uni/industry collaboration project which is so far going not too bad, if stressful. Anyhow More later D. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 13th, 2004
5:06 pm	An update This is an update to keep gravilim shineyquarter happy :P Also apologies to stipe if it gives you another heart attack :) So... what have I actually been up to recently... Well apart from about 8 of the 25 or so University committees I sit on meeting, and trying to get my project to work and then document it, for results see here, I've been trying to plan my election campaign for my Students Union. I would point you to here if they hadn't managed to screw up transferring stuff from one host to another *rolls eyes* Anyhow I'll try and keep more current than this... Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Placebo - Where is my mind (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
11:30 am	Another ouch Yesterday was a bit of a stressful day in all, left the house at about 12:45, took 2hrs till I got my hair cut, then rushed off to the cinema to see ROTK. That was good, though I did miss a bit of it since my knee seized up part way through. Then tried walking home, but my knee really gave out about half-way back so I had to get a lift :( Didn't sleep well last night either so am somewhat tetchy this morning. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Placebo - Where is my mind (Comment on this)
Monday, December 22nd, 2003
7:02 pm	%*!$#*^% Knee Did a fair bit of walking today, which seems to have aggravated my knee.... mind you the cold probably didn't help much either. *bah* I'll be so glad when they can get round to fixing this infernal thing. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Cruel Intentions Soundtrack - Counting Crows / Colorblind (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 21st, 2003
2:44 pm	To keep Thrawn happy Basically this post is mainly to keep thrawn happy and to stop him poking me. I may get round to doing more of a recap/update of my life at somepoint, but I'm afraid that this will have to suffice for the moment. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Shrek Soundtrack - Leslie Carter / Like wow! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 23rd, 2001
2:24 am	What is the point Why do I even bother with anything..... all that happens is either I screw up or someone screws me up. It doesn't matter what I try I can't get a damn thing right..... is there a point to this whole charade, I'm really beginning to think that there isn't and I'm just wasting my time with it all. I'm all alone... and I don't know if I want company or if I want to be alone forever. Maybe someone will understand this junk that I write, I know I can't. People tell me it will be better but I don't see how.... I guess my only consolation is that it can't get much worse than it is now and that I really should just crawl up in a little ball. There's stuff I kinda promised I'd do that I now really don't want to bother with since the whole idea of anything doesn't fit with my mood....... there's stuff I want to do that I can't now and may never be able to..... WHY? I know I'm not perfect and mess things up lots, but all I want is forgiveness and another chance to try... why can't I be granted that at least. I guess that whatever I've done is just too much It wouldn't surprise me at all I'm so good at just messing everything up that people are just fed up with me.... Oh well back to whatever the word to describe my 'life' (yeah like I have one) is atm. D/S/C :( Current Mood: depressed Current Music: none - which is a real downer (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 5th, 2001
10:07 pm	Exams and other such joyous occasions Well today wasn't terribly nice :( I got some sort of stomach bug which manifested itself last night and continued today... :( This means that todays exam was less fun than it could have been :( I'm still feeling really crap now and just wish that I didn't have exams so I could just spend a whole day in bed and recover... but that's not going to happen for a while Oh well I guess I'll just grin and bear it (stiff upper lip and all that ) and hope that I'm ok for the exam on thursday that I'm really stressing about. D/S/C Current Mood: sick Current Music: none :( (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 1st, 2001
11:51 pm	Hmmm I really must get my soundcard to work under linux now.... since then I could play CD's and stuff when I'm here at home........... Anyway I'll fiddle tomorrow and ask people's advice then. But anyone who knows how to get a SBL1024 working under linux, feel free to comment. D/S/C Current Mood: tired Current Music: None :( (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:41 pm	Woo (again) Today has been a good day, well mostly. I woke up lateish and was tired (from karate) and then had to sort stuff out. I got my postal vote form, so I filled that in and posted it back (one less thing on my mind). I can't find the lecturer I needed to talk to at all, which is annoying, but I'll be able to cope (hopefully). Any with the help of giant I got loserjabber up and running *bounce* :) I'm just wishing now that sunday wasn't so long away.... I want to do karate again, it was _FUN_ :) D/S/C Current Mood: excited Current Music: wierd al spoof of one week by the bare naked ladies (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 31st, 2001
10:10 pm	Wooooooo bounce *bounce* BOUNCE *BOUNCE* Woooo :) After a lil upset earlier this week, I finally got off my lazy arse and went to the karate club here at uni.... It was sooo much fun (did I mention that I'm bouncy after it?) :) Anyway the person at uni is also into manga and anime, and has promised to show me some which is really cool :) Anyway lots of hugs to jarel who managed to give me the final imputus to get up and go. D/S/C PS: I'm shattered, I shouldn't be bouncing.... I'll POING instea........... Ooooh, what's that :) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Abba :- Our last summer (not mine) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 27th, 2001
7:38 pm	Grrrrrrrrrrrr Woody I've been trying to get Woody (Debian GNU/Linux 2.3) up for the whole of yesterday and today, and never quite getting there :( Oh well must try more later D/S/C (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 26th, 2001
6:06 pm	Life Well, given I'm a sad spod type person I've spent today installing woody (debian 2.3) onto my system. I'm writing this whilst waiting for ximian gnome to d/l itself and install :/ Anyway I'm happy since had 3 exams which went ok and have now got 10 days till my next one :) Anyway *SNUGGLES* to sath, and *HUGS* to the rest of you :) D/S/C Current Mood: geeky Current Music: Nothing :( (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2001
8:25 pm	Ooops I've been letting this get very behind :( Well having been repeatedly pestered by Jarel I (he :) ) decided I should post again, so here goes.... I'm a lot better now than I was when I posted my previous entries, and am only down about one thing (exams) but that kinda can't be helped. I've suddenly realised how great a gift life is, despite my efforts to make it worthless. I'm glad for all the people who I know and who have been there for me and actually kicked me hard enough to get stuff done about my problems, rather than letting me not do anything because I'm too lazy. Anyway I really ought to be revising (koff) and spodding too so I'll sign off here and post tomorrow :) D/S/C Current Mood: happy Current Music: Simply Red - if you don't know me by now (not mine :) ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 27th, 2001
9:29 pm	Erm, this needs a post I decided that I ought to post here again, I'm just kinda busy in life atm :( I've managed to sort parts of me out, but me as a whole is still really low :( I'm hoping that this holiday coming up will solve stuff, particularly me being with one person properly in 2 weeks or so will really help matters :) I've got a spodmeet this saturday (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and that should be so cool. I'll meet lotsa people again and will be happy. I'm randomly wurbling and rambling so I'll stop now, take care friends, esp my special one :) Current Mood: drained Current Music: random stuff (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 18th, 2001
12:20 am	Happy Chezzie I decided that posting an upbeat LJ entry was a good thing. I've now sorted out something that has been worrying me for a long time and am feeling (a) human and (b) closer to God as a result (both _really_ good things. :) Thanks to all people who helped me through everything. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Savage Garden - Chained to You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 8th, 2001
12:09 am	A less pessimistic Chezzie Hey :) I'm feeling less down. Part of this may be because I got my code to work, with help from people telling me where I'd gone horribly wrong (Thanks :) ) I'm also generally a little better now and feeling a tad more bouncy :) I'll stop randomly waffling now and sleep I think :) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Savage Garden - Affermation (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 7th, 2001
12:04 am	Do I have the right I'm sitting here crying irl and then feeling bad, because what's happening to me is so much less than that which is happening to others I know, and they are nowhere near as depressed and sad as I am. I'm feeling that I don't have the right to feel sad because I have got nowhere near as much to deal with as them, but at the same time I can't help it. I wish there were some easy way to solve my mind, but unfortunately there isn't :( I'm guessing that I really need to think a little more about myself and my life and go and find someone to talk it over with. Thank you to everyone who's ever helped me out, and has put their time aside to accomodate me, I don't want to think where I would be if you weren't there for me. I kinda suspect that you wouldn't need to be there for me now though :( Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Savage Garden - Crash and Burn (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 6th, 2001
8:18 pm	Life in General It seems kinda sad to start this whole thing off with a down look at life, but I'm afraid that's really how I'm feeling. I'm wondering why life has this habit of being cruel to you when you least need it, maybe it's God's way of showing you that he's there no matter what you are going through. I hope it's that, and I'm glad he's here with me, because otherwise I wouldn't be :( Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Savage Garden - Hold Me / Delerious? - Deeper (2 Comments |Comment on this)